After the tragic bombing at an Ariana Grande concert in Manchester last year that took the lives of 22 people, the singer is finally opening up about how it’s affected her life. In a new interview with British Vogue, Ariana revealed she’s had Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder after the bombing, and considering what happened that night, it’s no surprise that it’s had such an impact on her in the months that have passed.
“It’s hard to talk about because so many people have suffered such severe, tremendous loss,” Ariana told the magazine. “But yeah, it’s a real thing.”
It has to be incredibly hard for Ariana to talk about; so many people were hurt or killed at that bombing, and it continues to impact so many lives even now, a year later. But even though Ariana wasn’t physically injured in the bombing, which took place as her concert was ending on May 22, 2017, she was still there that day, and she still has to grapple with the fact that some of her fans were killed, which must be so difficult to cope with.
“I know those families and my fans, and everyone there experienced a tremendous amount of [PTSD] as well,” she said. “Time is the biggest thing. I feel like I shouldn’t even be talking about my own experience – like I shouldn’t even say anything. I don’t think I’ll ever know how to talk about it and not cry.”
But it’s good that Ariana is talking about her experience because she’s definitely not the only one who struggles with issues like PTSD and though she may not have lost a personal friend that day, her reaction is completely valid. It’s hard to imagine exactly what that day must have been like, but it makes sense that something so horrifying would leave such a lasting impression. PTSD isn’t the only mental health issue that Ariana is facing — she also deals with anxiety, which she kept quiet about until recently because she felt like it was a part of life that everyone has to deal with.
“My anxiety has anxiety… I’ve always had anxiety,” she added. “I’ve never really spoken about it because I thought everyone had it, but when I got home from tour it was the most severe I think it’s ever been.”
Struggling with PTSD and anxiety is never easy, but good for Ariana for opening up. There’s no doubt that her fans will appreciate her honesty — especially the ones who have experienced a mental illness of their own. With her new single out and this next phase of her career beginning, it’s clear Ariana isn’t letting her past or her demons hold her back. And honestly, knowing her, we wouldn’t expect anything less.